Letih tapi seronok

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Bangkit dari tidur dan teringat hari ini ada beberapa appointment yang perlu dihadiri. Masih terngiang ngiang lagi kata kata sahabat saya Rasman Ithnain semasa di Felda Apeng Timur," Mal, biar letih tapi seronok!". Bunyinya nakal tapi itulah hakikatnya.

Mungkin ramai yang mengganggap saya dibesarkan dengan sudu emas dan ditatang dalam talam perak! Sebenarnya tidak. Saya anak orang susah. Hidup sederhana dari kecil dan pernah juga kena public canning kat sekolah! Saya pernah jugak mandi sungai dan main layang layang. Lebih dari itu, saya jugak pernah dicerca dan disisihkan kerana kami orang susah..hidup ala kadar.

Mana taknya; anak orang lain beli makanan kat kantin masa rehat sedangkan saya bawak bekal dalam kotak plastik je...anak orang lain pakai kasut Warrior dan saya dengan Fung Keong je! Anak orang lain pakai minyak rambut Code 10 dan kepala saya mak sapu dengan minyak Lenga@ Bijan je!Meleleh bila assembly tengahari!

Tapi semua itu mendewasakan saya. Saya lalui dan lihat semua. Kadang kadang menangis pada ketika itu kerana orang lain ada patung Combat Vic Morrow dan saya hanya dengan anak patung beruang yang mak hadiahkan. Kawan? Tak ramai sebab mungkin down-grade kalau mereka berkawan dengan saya. Antara kawan kawan yang saya ingat ialah 2 beradik dari estet Layang Layang yakni Ravi dengan Anthony, Chia Loong Hwa, P. Mageswary and M Shanti, Tabbassum, Robert Tay Thiam Hock, Ayem, Hashimah Hashim, Pahitah, Ah Chai dan Su Bangla.

Saya dengan Robert memang kamcing. Dari Sekolah Rendah Jubli Intan Rengam sampailah Sek Men Dato' Haji Hassan Yunos, kami berkawan. Shanti pulak sparring partner saya dari darjah 4 sampai kami berpindah ke Tampin bila saya naik Tingkatan 3. Dari darjah 4, saya fasih dah berbahasa Inggeris. Macamana tu? Saya banyak tonton tv tanpa tengok sarikata daa!he he he

Dan kemudian ini, bila saya kenang semula, memang benar kata kata Rasman (sekarang YB Tuan Haji Rasman ADUN Sedili, Kota Tinggi, Johor). Biar letih tapi seronok..Saya memang letih apatah lagi usia semakin meningkat..ehem! Namun, latihan, pendedahan dan pengalaman hidup terus mengajar saya untuk terus berlari dalam marathon kehidupan...biarkan dunia mengejar saya kerana saya telah lama berhenti mengejar dunia.

Apapun yang kita lakukan, biarlah kita letih tapi seronok. Dan barangkali inilah sifat saya; teruskan melangkah gagah kerana," Hari ini, jalan ini, pasti semakin berliku, kerana masadepan belum tentu menjanjikan syurga, bagi mereka yang lemah dan mudah kecewa..Perjuangan ini belum selesai, kerana hanya yang cekal dan tabah, dapat membena bangsanya yang berjaya".

Al-fatihah buat adik adik saya and a moment of silent to my sisters. Sis, I wont stop...battered and wounded i may be but i will march forward till my very last breath for I am the representative of the Dead..

Kamal fnd Hashim

Johor here i come..

1030hrs

Sampai pejabat ku yang kecil ini. Tersorok di celah himpunan kedai mamak, hari ni kena pack barang dalam kereta untuk ke Johor sempena kempen OUR HOME THE SAFEST PLACE. Sarat dengan muatan kereta ni dah!

11.30hrs.

Peluh menitik dari dahi. Belakang ku sakit semula...Ini kecederaan lama masa kerja dulu. Hero konon! Terjun dari tingkat 1 Kompleks PKNS nak tangkap penyamun. Nasib baik dapat tangkap but what was i thinking ya? Sebenarnya pada masa itu, i didnt think at all. You see, we were trained to protect and serve the public. Jadinya, that was the right thing to do then. Till now, kalaupun masa dapat diterbalikkan, i will still do the same. No regrets.

12.30hrs

Naik balik ke pejabat untuk bawak turun printer 21kg ni! Abih, macamana nak print sijil penyertaan kalau tak bawak kan? Jadinya bawak jugak le..Mungkin ada yang bertanya, kenapa tak print siap siap je dan biar nama nama peserta kosong supaya mereka boleh tulis sendiri? Bukan resmi saya begitu..bahkan dalam banyak bengkel yang saya kendalikan, saya rasa kita perlu hormat peserta. Mereka datang bukan suka suka dan sebagai menghargainya, kenapa tidak kita laksanakan tanggungjawab kecil ini?Macamana nak pikul tanggungjawab besar kalau yang kecil macam ni pun tak boleh.?

Dan inilah masalah kita sebenarnya..Ramai nak pegang jawatan tetapi tidak mahu mengisi keperluan jawatannya. Bagi saya, kita tidak perlu belot bila kita diberikan amanah tertentu. Kita perlu mengisinya sebaik mungkin kerana menghormati orang lain dan setidak tidaknya diri kita sendiri.

Saya tak pandai main wayang. Saya bukan kaki potong reben. Saya suka bekerja. Now, ask yourself, are you game enough?...

Setakat ini sahaja yang dapat saya coret. Nak bergerak dah. Kalau ada masa, nanti sampai JB saya update lagi...

p/s See you in Felda Lok Heng Timur esok...

terimakasiiiiiiihhhhhhhhhh!!

Hari ini dalam sejarah! Ahaks!! yang pertama, this afternoon i attended a meeting untuk EXCO MCPF. There i was the only botak head among almost 30 VIPs. Tempat bagus yakni Kompleks Kraftangan Jalan Conlay, Kuala Lumpur. Had to leave early though..just after i managed to speak my two cents worth of opinion. I proposed to set up Youth Committee in MCPF with the like of Dato Johnny (MCPF Pahang) and Vermon (MCPF KL). Then, i excused myself and keluar menghala Setapak. But the Chairman of the meeting, Tan Sri Lee Lam Thye suruh submit paper dulu to him..Hmmm..takpe la..at least i've tried.

5.00pm there i was at Surau Taman Bunga Raya. Why? My kakak sulung nikah daa..and yours truly jadi wali!! Pak andak dah risau mana si Kamal tak sampai sampai and called me up banyak kali. Well, the truth is the Surau takda dalam GPS! Macamana nak jumpa!

Sekali lafaz je i berjaya menikahkan my kak nor. Then i was overcome by emotion..if only abah is around...i lost my abah Jan 13, 1998...i miss him. I miss him.

8.00 pm is the kenduri for kak nor. Then came a phone call...jeng jeng jeng..I was informed that the EXCO agreed on my proposal and bersetuju melantik me as the Chairman for the Youth Exco! Proposed by Tan Sri Robert Phang @ Mr whistle blower (he gave out 10000 whistles for crime prevention purpose) and seconded by Tan Sri Yeoh Tiong Lay (YTL Corp)! Whoaaa!

I am truly happy. After all this years, the effort and recognition untuk belia dalam MCPF akhirnya berbalas. Kepercayaan yang diberi ini amat penting untuk pelapis belia akan datang. I hope akan datang lebih ramai belia akan melibatkan diri dalam pencegahan jenayah. I will guide them if they want to. But you have to do it for your country and not for your own gain. Prove it to me and i'll help you all the way.

I am a happy man today..Untuk belia di luar sana, come join me. Mari kita sama sama buat program untuk adik adik kita yang lain! But before that,mekasihhhhhhhhhhhh!!, for supporting this initiative. Tolong hebahkan berita ini kepada yang lain ek?

Jumpa nanti ek?!

June 2nd

2.30pm meeting in Crown Princess KUL for this coming event; National Crime Prevention Month scheduled in August. The usual suspects were there namely Dato Eddy Chin (the Chairman), Dato Kamaruddin Md Ali, Lawrence Chan and MCPF office bearer. The rest of the roundtable discussion were members from the PRESS and AWAM. Madeleine of ps The Children also ada..

My comment; Good food.

June 3rd

I was told over the phone by Puan Rohani that one of MBSB manager passed away due to heart attack. I bow my head and recites fatihah to En Kamaruzaman the Regional Manager of Northern Section. I met him during our campaign on may 1o, 2008 and had spent little time with him then to truly knows him..shame on me..

Which brings us to this';will there be a single soul who would remember me when i am gone? Better still, would those who cried for me are greater in numbers than those who are relieved by me not being around anymore? Have we done enough in our life?

I am still pondering on this.

June 4th

7.30am.. i am at TV3 for a slot in MHI. Today's topic- jerat khayal. It is abour Date Rape Drugs i.e. Rophynol, GBH and Spanish Fly...he he..seriously! After that, while waiting for the producer (Ahmad Fetri) to get hhis feedback, i bumped into the larger than life Mazidul Akmal. Whoaaa!!!
2 botaks!! BTW, i had my locks made to botak recently! (and i looked cute!)

Mazidul said,' bro, blog tu buat dalam bahasa inggeris je. Buat lah dalam bahasa Malaysia gak".
I said," ek? nanti gue cube le bro'.

He was armed with his camera and insisted to snap photos of two botaks! I told bro mazidul," aku tak bagi orang amek gambar aku botak tau! Nko je bro..only for you!". We laughed.

Now, i think i will be blogging in bahasa malaysia and will give it a try. If the responses is good, then, sorry old chap, i will blog in bahasa malaysia only. If it is no good, then i'll continue in English. If it is just so so, i'll do it it both! Hah

Apapun, i am happy cos orang jarang lawat my blog. Hence tak payah update selalu daa!!

Untuk orang orang johor khususnya Kota Tinggi, tunggu kamal affandi di Felda Apeng Timur ek pada 7 Jun ni. Kawan turun kempen rumah kita- tempat paling selamat kat dewan sana. Kawan harap ramai datang le..

Jumpa nanti ek.

sorry again..

hi there good people. I havent had the time to blog recently and therefore i have to say sorry. Indeed a lot had happened while i left this blog thing..

First and foremost, as published by Harian Metro regarding about Bogus PhD holders and such, i received many responses. Some says it was good revelation. Some say kamal go to hell. Either way, at least i know why i am doing it; the truth.

I am not interested to know whether i am/was right or am/was wrong. I am only interested in the truth. While a lot of people are inclined to have their own say or belief in whatever issues at hand, politics, life and times namely, i am interested in saying the truth..nothing but the truth.

I had no malicious intent or hatred towards anyone who couldn't agree with me. I dont. In any of my debate, discussion or forums, i always has been interested in truth. Well, a lot of people just argue or discuss thing to prove that ONLY their views are right while others dont. And to them, i am really sorry to disappoint you...

I heard heard stories of kamal this kamal that, what an arrogant bastard i am, recalcitrant bla bla bla..but seriously i couldnt care less. Why? I am doing what i am supposed to do; spreading truth and dividing fact from fiction. I am not doing it to be popular but i am doing it for the sake of one-small-insignificant-word; truth.

Well, i remember 5 years ago when a politician or he-who-seek-to-be-somebody-in-the-political-circus eh, circle told me that i am too idealistic. Reason; i said you politician can afford to make promises and then forget it. I also said just because you cut ribbons and launched a campaign, it doesnt meant wound are heal and problem solved. Academically, i asked him why on earth that he was conducting the Belia Turun ke Kampung membasmi dadah? Why kampung? Are you saying that people in FELDA and kampung are drug addicts? I asked again why didnt he clean up youth in your own stable before turun ke kampung?

He got agitated. He said;"kamal, you are too idealistic!'.I just smiled.

My god! How can i deviate when i am dealing with precious lives here! I cant! I am committed to believe that it is my job to save live and he called me too idealistic!Ahaks...go figure!

EARLY MAY 2008

Some good news..

A lot had happen recently. I bumped(figure of speech ya!!) into Deputy Minister Dato' Noraini of Puteri recently in Low Yatt, KL. We chatted. I found her very frank, transparent and of course charming la!.. and i said i am now willing to co-operate with her wing. Before this, i dont. Why? a lot of bangsawan ke udara from certain quaters. I dont work with clowns, if you had read my earlier posting la..With Noorani, i dont find that arrogantly disposition. She is genuine and i bent.

May 6.

I was entrusted to run the OUR HOME-THE SAFEST PLACE by Malaysia Building Society Berhad (MBSB). The launching were held in KL Sentral by the SecGen of Housing & Local Gov, Dato' Ahmad Fuad Ismail. I participated because this MBSB are genuine in their pursuit to give out knowledge to the public. Not only they can finance your property, they make it a point to ensure your home is the safest place. Hence, i give my 100%.

May 10

The campaign is in Kulim now. 582 had been invited. 98 turned out.Go figure...

May 16

Berjaya Megamall, Kuantan.Wow!228 turned out!I am happy and closed to tears..uhm...macho man pun nagis jugak la...but seriously..i was happy to know that there are still some people who are willing to brave their lazy sunday and double holiday (isnin wesak) to participate in majlis ilmu like that. Normally, people dont.

May 20

My weekly radio pgrm over BERNAMA Radio 24. 915pm to 1000pm. Assignment for listeners next week is Pernahkah anda memainkan peranan dalam pencegahan jenayah? So, do call if you had contributed before.Number to call?carilah sendiri..at least you can tell people your effort in finding the numbers and contributed to the call for safety!!he he

May 21

RESPECT YOUR LIMIT campaign by Plus Expressways Berhad in Dewan Tun Dr Ismail, PWTC. I was the moderator for this and happy to note that over 140 attended this session. Some do care...

May 22

At my ofis in Shah Alam. Aircond rosak and lights out. Why? i donated my office to tikus to eat any insulation and wires. Sedekah...Received a call from mazidul yup..THE MAZIDUL over recent crime..the torso.

While doing so, he told me his newly opened blog @ mazidulakmal.blogspot.com..please visit ya? and i am typing this while the electrical contractor is repairing the wires...

Tomorrow i will be in Malacca for Respect Your Limit Campaign. Where? Go ask PLUS at 1-800-88-0000 ..he he he

My office is dark and gloom and i should be blind as a bat, you may asked? Nope..my heart leads me.


kamal fnd hashim

U got time ah?

hey hey hey..it is post election fever... Talk of the town fever...and i am also having a fever! No pun intended!really!!

I wonder how and i wonder why we still are talking about this election thing. I think if one has the time, one has to utilise this moment of serenity to ponder on what can we learnt from the election process.

I learnt about passion from the energy of people around me campaigning and championing their cause. I learnt that if we were to put our mind together, we could do many magical thing.

These are people who didnt have enough sleep during this episode. The crawled, they climbed and they rolled for the entire 13 days without fail. They managed to climb the highest pokok kelapa to hang the poster. They managed to erect a statue made completely of 6 X 5 inches flags of their parties. They managed many things!!

Then, reality strucked me. How come when we needed them the most in term of crime prevention campaign, they were never there?

I am still crying..

I am back!!!!!!!!!!!!

I apologize to all who had been trying to contact me or read an upadated version of my thought. I was (and still) very busy. But then again, why do i have to keep myself busy?

Hmm..simple...I evolves.
Man and machine became one...

Is it possible, you may asked? Yup. Just be you. Adapt.

For those who are unfamiliar with my style of writing, i am sorry. My ways of doing things are a bit different than your norms, perhaps. I am just pointing out the need for speed.

Where were you when sharlinie was abducted? I dont know. Me? I was doing my daily crime prevention workshops at schools. When the news broke out, i expected it. Why? Because somehow i knew it will happen sooner or later by the same culprits who did Nurin.

How would i feel? Same. Its like i havent given my best. I failed and so do you..

Hence, i suggest when you are about to laugh in any of your activity today, spare a thought of that little girl, NINI, who is being hidden and kept somewhere by that beast. Asked yourself this, have you done enough?

Ironic it may be but a lot of people wanted the criminal to be found ASAP. Unfortunately, this are selfish people! They want it to preserve thyselves. They dont want it to happen to their own families. They saw the need to prevent this from happening ever again to their kids!

Selfish!

I for one wants a different thing. I just want him to be found ASAP because I want NINI saved. Thats my priority.

Therefore, think before you leap.

Asked yourselves this;- Are you part of the solution or are you part of the problem?

If you want sharlinie to be saved, you are part of the solution. If you just want to protect your own existance and interest, shame on you.

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