I've been kicked, swore at and still survive! For short, i've been everywhere. From the day i was born till today, i am a survivor. I am thankful to all my enemies; without them i wont be where i am today. I am also thankful to those who despise me for it gave me the strength to carry on. I am also in debt to those who hated me for it made me a better person.
Yes, i've been around so long that i cant remember the first time i felt betrayed. I had had my share of losing. But above all, i still and will survive. Why, you may ask, am i pondering this thought as the opening sequence of the blog? Simple. I am just a normal human being entrusted to win all the battle and all the war. The keyword-BETRAYED.
Born into the world, i had to go through all the hardship of life like a normal person...very much alike. I had to go through the tedious process of understanding culture, customs and tradition. I bleed from time to time then and now.
What i meant to say is this; as a normal person, i felt the pain of losing and losses. When the recent crime happened, i was at war with myself. I betrayed the sole purposes of my presence. I cant sleep for nights thinking that i had betrayed nurin. I should have done more.I could have done more..
And hence when i put myself into this fragile situation, understanding what was going through her mind at that dangerous liason with death, i could feel her asking the question;where are the defender of mankind? Had man betrayed their own species?Why no one come forward and help me?
All this question made me realises one thing; that i have to work harder and better...that i would have to live with regrets that i wasnt there for her, nursafira liyana bte jaafar, nurul huda abdul ghani, audrey mellisa, nurul hanis kamil, nur syakila ram choo, farah deeba rustam, haserawati saridi, canny ong, siti nadira budah, nur shazwani dahalan.
Had i betrayed my purpose of existance?Probable and possible..
One thing for sure, my sisters, in my book you dont die. I shall carry you in my heart everywhere i go and make sure no more betrayal exist for the benefit of others.Period.